words, words, words

I love words, I can't spell to save my life and I usually butcher the pronunciation - but I like the vast amount of words - how each word is individual, each with it's own meaning and I like how some words form in the mouth and they're just fun to spit out. I like putting words together to form a sentence that speaks volumes. Sadly that's all I'm good at writing, individual sentences. Can't put them together and any editor/English freak would hate me but sometimes I crank out a good facebook status. :-)

No matter how much I love words, I definitely need to learn to filter my mouth. I constantly suffer from foot in mouth syndrome, often not realizing I've had an episode until hours or days, or weeks later. I especially fail to think when I'm excited or happy, it's like my brain shuts down and stupid remarks fall out without being processed. Even worse my memory is horrible so I often don't remember what I said - so when somebody makes an offhanded remark about what I said 'I'm like, woah my words are powerful enough to be noted' and 'crap I totally didn't mean it like that'. I'm sarcastic and opinionated and blunt. My hurtful remarks have diminished considerably but I still need to watch my words and actions, I don't want somebody to be hurt when I didn't mean it the way the they took it.

Probably more than an Obsession

Ok I admit it, I love Veronica Mars. My sisters would say obsessed - I prefer intense liking, and I like to believe it's perfectly normal to relinquish sleep in order to stare at a screen - and watch a few episode during the day as well. I might have a problem. :P


I'm not sure what aspect makes it so great, simply put it's a serious about a modern day Nancy Drew, with more drama, danger, love, attitude, and technology. But it's so much more complex then the 'simply put' version. It's mini mystery's wrapped up in a huge murder mystery with multiple suspects and tons of clues that consistently keep you guessing (the first season more then the other two) and with clever writers who end an episode at a suspenseful climax you have to watch another episode and then another. This bundled with an amazing cast playing dynamic characters that undergo transformation throughout the series and writing that is lol hilarious and past and current cultral references, and fantastic relationships between the characters makes a fantastic series. Actually I can't describe what makes it so addicting. It just is.

p.s. If you should began to watch Veronica Mars I should warn you that it is addicting - but there are only three seasons. Also, there are only three seasons!!!!!!! It will leave you wanting - and it's currently on Neflix's instant play :-D

Attack of the Big Green Monster

I have a serious problem with envy. I always feel like the grass is greener on the other side. Even when I’ve been on the other side and I know that the grass is wilted. And when I actually think about it I remember all the benefits of being right where I am and all the downsides to being there. But still I feel envious. I wish it was possible to have the best of both worlds. Or like you could customize your life – I’d like a meaningful job that I love, with great pay, under 40hrs a week, with a four year degree, and coworkers I can get along with – I’d like to live in the middle of no where, but have the convenience of living in a city, and a private road. Sadly life is not made to order so I’m stuck with having to learn to love what I got and enjoy it while it last, because soon I’ll be wishing I was right where I am now.

2 week Hiatus

So I have an excuse for my absence, as I do for everything. I was in NYC for a week and then New Hampshire. I ended up having to skip church and Winter Jam because mom wanted to leave Sunday morning. And she didn’t find out about it until Saturday night. So I was pretty mad because I had plans for that week.

So we get to NYC and the hotel looks really nice – until we get to our room. It was ridiculously small and just ew – and they didn’t even have internet! (oh well they did, you just had to pay 15 bucks for the day). So I really couldn’t blog about my adventures (or the lack of) in NYC. But to recap, I woke up, walked to work, worked, walked back, ate dinner, watched charmed, went to bed. Then just when I thought I couldn’t stand another second the lady we were working under wanted us to go to Long Island to work. This hotel was soooo much nicer – they had internet and breakfast in the morning, and the beds were soft and – oooo so much nicer. And I could have blogged then – and I tired I really did – but my emotions were all over the place, I was frustrated, annoyed, indifferent, amused, blessed, and I’d start to write something then decide to write about something else, then go back so really I was all confused and watched Veronica Mars instead.

Then Mom realized that we didn’t have any work for the next week so she decided we were going to New Hampshire. So I got to see my babies and my sisters!!! I mostly had a good time there. They’re all getting so big!!!

And now I’m home. I finally get to sleep in my own comfy bed. I can finally run. I can drive! And I can blog. :-)

The Tales of a Sun Burnt Runner

"The heavy beat of her sneakers slamming against the pavement failed to weaken the thundering thoughts that invaded her mind. Her lungs threatened to explode and the blood ferociously pumped a steady rhythm as it rushed to her head. Her muscles began to ache, pleading to go no further. The heat rose throughout her body and sweat glistened every inch of her skin. But still she ran, ignoring all the screaming signs from her brain."

See the problem isn't that I don't have enough topics to talk about - the problem is that I don't know what topic to cover next. :-/

I just went for a run. I love running! Most of the time it doesn't clear my head but makes me think more. Like today it gave a million topics to write about - most of which I have forgotten - so I want to stop running and start writing. But by the time I get back to the house and catch my breath I forgot what it was I wanted to write. Same thing happens when I'm in the shower.

I use to run all the time, now it's just sparingly. I miss running. I miss running my stress away, I miss being outside everyday. I miss escaping my thoughts by pushing my body until it screams for me to stop and my lungs threaten to explode from my chest. I miss chasing down a ball, I miss proving that I can last even when my body is screaming that I can’t, I miss the thrill, I miss the runners high.

Now my bones ache and my muscles scream before I’ve even reached the half hour mark. Now my body betrays me and I’ve felt pain that I don’t remember. But I still love running. I’m hoping to build my endurance up again, I’m hoping to tone up and lose the extra baggage. It’s gonna be a long road and having to leave town for work and Longwood and not having a gym to use when it’s cold or raining is only gonna make it worse.

I remember Stephme and had created a workout routine that didn’t last long. We would get up early and run, or do the video when we finally bought it. It started out great but then school got in the way. Exercise was the first to go after endless all nighters. And for a heavy snacker this is not ok. But too late now.

Also today was a beeeauutiful day! So after my shower I thought it would be a most excellent idea to go outside and lay in the sun for a little while and read a book. I was right it was great!! However I fell asleep. And for a norwegian who is neon white and CAN'T tan (no matter what my dad claims) this is NOT GREAT!!!! Now I am sun burnt on one side of my left leg and a very small portion on my right leg. :-/
And after my dad laughed at me he told me that next time I need to lay the other way to even it out and before long I'll have a nice even tan. Obviously 20 years of never having a 'real' tan is not enough evidence for him to believe that I can tan. (I say 'real' tan because my skin does get a shade darker, I've had the hair-tie tan lines to prove it, however showing my friend she replied with "thats NOT a tan, thats going from neon white to pasty!!" )

To sum up – I love running – I suck at running – I’m gonna start running again. … hopefully. :-D - sunburns suck - I can't tan.

Welcome to Existance

well I've finally done it (again). I've created another blog - one that I hope to actually write in.

So I guess in my first blog there's the customary answer to the "who am I?" question and to be honest I have no idea. :-P

I mean, I know I'm not perfect and I don't pretend to be. My hair is usually a mess, my clothes don't always match, I spill things a lot, I'm clumsy, I'm a picky eater, I mess up songs and I'm a terrible singer, I can't spell to save my life, I love purple, I'm a slacker. I like to write, I love to read, I like to run and play sports (but I'm not very good at any), my room is a mess and I usually don't bother making my bed, I love adventure and I'd try anything once (some times 3 or 4 times because I forgot what it was like and because I'm a firm believer in second chances), I like to travel ... I have many interests and likes and a LOT of dislikes. I have amazing friends, I have a wonderful family, my life is a chaotic mess of uncertainty, and I love it.